scaredxofxgirls

i need to feel better i'm tired of this everytime i think my mind is broken it's breaking everything everything i look at looks just like you do and i have to stop i have to stop before it starts again before my eyes start again they can't start again i can't explain it everything looks so far away my heart feels so far away just listen to the drone and it'll all go away because that's all i want right now that's all i want i want you to go away and i want to throw everything away because it feels like i have nothing left to live for it feels like i'm ugly and like there's no one here for me all because of you and eve

beyond the laughter and beyond the memories there's a sea of faces. and everyone is in it and everyone is mixed together into one giant corrupt bullshit lie. the only existing expression is hidden by hate and it's disgusted and it's frowning and it's humanity. it's not obscure and it's not clear it's simply existing and it's been here all along. in the innocent and in the dead in victims and in dying but most of all to comfort you. to remind you that it's all bullshit. everything you do is bullshit. everything you see is bullshit. everything we are is bullshit.